loss touches loss

Today I took my camera to school to watch the birds even though it's Spring Break. I went and looked out the window, and no mama bird on the nest. I waited, and could see the tiny forms of the baby birds, but no movement. After sitting quietly awhile I walked outside and unlocked the gate and went to look closely at the nest. They were cuddled up next to each other and still. I'm so tired of the universe right now.